| AIDs walk |
[19 Jul 2004|11:07am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cheerful |
] |
I did the AIDs walk yesterday~! Walked 6.5 miles with my BBYO group and donated $$ to "help fight the AIDs epidemic". It wasnt that bad. It was really worth it. There was a group next to us called "BEAT BUSH!!" Lmao xD
I got a pin and a sticker for participating! Woot woot!
|
|
|
| MEGAN IS DRIVING ME NUTS |
[13 Jul 2004|04:54pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 irritated |
] |
Jesus fucking christ what the hell is up with her today?? Looky at this ENDLESS convo....shes on drugs or something I swear....
( Read more... )
|
|
|
|
[27 Jun 2004|07:44pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 blah |
] |
Yeah, well...Adis leaving tomorrow in the morning. Im waking up at 7 AM to drive her to the San Fransisco airport. Damn the local airport. Why doesnt it fly continental anyway? Fuck it. This sucks. It really didnt feel like a month at all...gone by so fast. She wants me to come to Israel in August and visit her at the base, but I cant...college and shit. Bah.
|
|
|
| >:O |
[22 Jun 2004|08:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 predatory |
] |
^&$@^&(*#(^&Q@&^)^*&
*FUME* FUCK THIS ADWARE/SPYWARE SHIT. Last month I got a popup which led to a website (some find the website you need peice of shit...) and that automatically installed a dotcom toolbar and made my homepage that site (it wouldnt let me change it either!). So my friend recommended Ad-aware, and I tried it and yeah it worked. But not completely. Now every fucking day I get a couple popups and I have to run Ad-aware again to get rid of the fucking tracking cookies. And now, out of the blue, I get the dotcom toolbar and my homepage is set to the evil website /AGAIN/. Im like what the fuck. I ran Ad-aware: 11 tracking cooked and 9 browser hijacking epquitment shits. That pissed me off.
It really pissed me off.
For Gods sake...people on the net are BRUTAL. Anyone know of an EXTREMELY good spyware killer?
|
|
|
| o.O |
[16 Jun 2004|05:28pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
mellow |
] |
I know, I know...I havent updated in FOREVER. Ive barely even written in my book diary either...just goes to show how mellow Ive been feeling lately.
New layout. Ive fallen in love with "Breathe" by Melissa Etheridge. When she sings, I feel it...I dont know how to explain it, but I feel the song. Probably because Ive felt that way myself. Not trying to sound depressed or anything. That reminds me. Rant mode on...
I was watching TV and this chick with a good amount of money and a really cute daughter was like "oh, I just hate my life." I cant stand it when people living in good conditions say that. What about the little kids who have barely even lived their lives yet with no running water? No food? No nothing. I read an article about a person that went to an African village and gave out pencils. The kids were //really// excited. So next time you say you hate your life think about that.
Ok rant mode off. Im weird today!
|
|
|
| :) |
[06 Jun 2004|06:46pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blah |
] |
|
|
|
| >:O |
[05 Jun 2004|12:30am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
pissed off |
] |
Why the fuck is it that whenever people find out about how my sister is in the army the first thing they ask is "Do you miss her?" WHAT THE HELL DO THEY /THINK/? Naw, I dont care that my sister, whom I love so much, has been gone for over 10 months in a different continent with a 9 hour time difference, 2 weeks postal minumum, and no time to talk. Hell naw. Whats more, I dont give shit that she just HAPPENS to be in a place where you have to watch your back for the fucking assholes who blow themselves up because itll supposedly get them closer to Allah.
And then when I say yes (what am I supposed to say?!), they put on their stupid sympathy expressions and usually say something around the lines of "aw". Surprise, I dont need your sympathy. I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE SO BAD ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY.
|
|
|
| >:( |
[15 May 2004|05:20pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
frustrated |
] |
Roar. Roar. Roar. Shit can be so damn frustrating sometimes. Everything just keeps on piling over everything and when youre trying to get through one hell another comes raining down on you. Its like, when will it ever fucking stop? Cant I just have a moment of peace, a moment when everything isnt so....suffocating? And then when you *finally* get a moment alone youre so exhausted you cant DO anything.
Maybe Ill ask Ma to take me to the spa for a nice black mud treatment or something. I hate asking her for shit though, she's so critical and calculating she wouldnt understand how exhausted I am and why. Everything is so straight forward...black or white, yes or no...she'd just think one thing happened and Im upset. But its not one thing. Its a series of things that wont stop dogpiling on me.
<333333333333333 Elisa <3333333333333333
You know there is a theory that once a civilization has had its golden age, things start going down. Thats so true, but not only with civilizations...after shit went nicely for a person everything falls down.
|
|
|
| Ethan and Moshit, if youre reading this: GO SUCK YOUR TINY ASS DICKS YOU REDNECKS. |
[11 May 2004|07:26pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blah |
] |
UUGH.
I hate Ethan. And I hate Mohit the Mofo. Rah. Those white trash lil fuckers. Megan told me Ethan was talking shit about me with Moshit behind my back. Fuck that. God. People are so evil sometimes.
Anyway. I dont want to think about those rednecks. I went clubbin with Matt a two days ago and THEY PLAYED MY FAVORITE SONGS EVER its fate its fate its fate!! I was dancing till I like had to sit down. Im so tired. It was hellsa fun though. The songs Im obsessed with that they played:
1 - Get Low, by Lil Jon & the East Side Boyz
2 - Yeah, Usher
3 - Splash Waterfalls, Luda
4 - Burn, Usher <333333333333333333
When Burn came on Matt and I slow danced and sang in his ear because I know he loves it when I sing to him and when I whisper in his ear.
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
|
|
|
| The List |
[03 May 2004|07:20pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
blah |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
One more minute, by Authority Zero |
] |
I feel like I need to let some shit out, so here goes. Guess if you want.
( Read more... )
So fucking tired from screaming and crying. This is fucked up.
No matter how much sleep I get, Im still so exhausted and overwhelmed. I want to cry into my fucking pillow then rip it into shreds.
Elisas funeral was today. I got her some flowers and laid them on her casket with a note that simply said "You will be remembered. I love you, Elisa." Everyone was so dead at the funeral...it was like Elisas death murdered us all too. Shit.
|
|
|
| RIP Elisa <33 |
[27 Apr 2004|05:31pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 numb |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Down So Long, by Jewel |
] |
(Thanks Nicole!!)
We love you Elisa <33333333
|
|
|
| The stuff thats been eating me for a while... |
[26 Apr 2004|03:55pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
depressed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Down So Long, by Jewel |
] |
Oh.
My.
God.
Elisa's gone. Shes dead. Oh my God. No one was there when she died, but her sister Anita said she choked herself on a hammock.
Suicide? Or accident?
No one knows. But for some reason everyone in my college knows about it, and 20 bucks says Ashleys the reason for all the rumours. Ashleys telling everyone Elisa commited suicide, but she doesnt know that for sure. I tried telling her that it could have been an accident, and now shes pissed at me. I want to strangle her...its SO fucking disrespectful to spread a rumour about a dead person. I cant believe this. Elisas gone.
This whole month Ive been praying (I strongly believe in God) for my good friend who used to cut herself and attempted suicide twice. I prayed to God to protect her from herself. We found out about Elisa yesterday, and today she said to me, "Hailey, if anything ever happens to me, this is what will happen. I dont want that."
She also told me she stopped cutting herself yesterday.
What if its my fault Elisa died? What if God sacraficed her to stop Surina from hurting herself? I sang, I wrote in my paper diary, I talked to Matt, and now Im typing it here, but I seriously cant get this thought out of my head.
Elisa was my friend.She didnt deserve to die. Akane was passing out pins today that said "RIP Elisa - we love you babe" in her calligraphy with her special old-fashioned pen. There was room to write at the bottom, and this is what mine says: "You helped me when I was at my lowest point, youve listened to everyones problems. I hope youre safe now, sweetheart, because everyone wants that. We love you, Elisa."
I cant take another death. Pat Tilman, Alex, my dad, Lena, and now Elisa.
God. I cant take it.
The wind blows cold when you reach the top.. -Jewel.
Damn straight it does.
|
|
|
| >:O |
[23 Apr 2004|02:55pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
enraged |
] |
To some bitches and bastards who go to my college:
I am so fucking sick and tired of hearing you start a rumour about me every week. Im sick and tired of people asking eachother what happened to me 2 years ago because theyre too afraid to ask ME. I wont break down if you ask me, I wont rip your head off and throw it in anju creek.
Just because of what I did doesnt mean Im a bad person. If you disagree, tell me. If you want to know exactaly what everyone is talking about, tell me. But do not stand there and talk about me behind MY back, about MY personal shit. And dont you fucking dare start any more fucking rumours because I swear Ive had enough of that.
Yes, Im talking to a few people in paticular here. I think you know who you are. Get your heads out of your asses before I do it for you.
|
|
|
| *bounce* |
[16 Apr 2004|02:32pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bouncy |
] |
My brand new addiction -
COKEMUSIC.COM BABY!
I go on that site every day now. *hugs it* its really fun. it helped me shake off my addiction to Neopets *dances*
my sweet sweet mattie-poo is working out at the gym almost every day now. oh, those gorgeous biceps and abs. *clings to them* MINE! xD
|
|
|
| Interesting Convo. |
[08 Apr 2004|10:50pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
cranky |
] |
So this is what i get for expressing my opinion on the shitty ass jon peter lewis from american idol on the OPINIONS BOARD. -_-
nameremoved [10:42 PM]: jpl is not horrible
nameremoved [10:42 PM]: u r
Meow 2018 [10:43 PM]: ok...
Meow 2018 [10:43 PM]: i just think he doesnt have any talent
nameremoved [10:43 PM]: u dont have taLENT
Meow 2018 [10:44 PM]: you dont even know me
nameremoved [10:44 PM]: U DONT EVEN KNO ME
Meow 2018 [10:45 PM]: i didnt judge you, i judged jpl
Meow 2018 [10:45 PM]: bye
nameremoved [10:46 PM]: IM RICK JAMES
Meow 2018 [10:46 PM]: good for you
Im leaving tomorrow for a mini-trip with Matt for 3 days. =) aloha and shalom ya'll.
|
|
|
| xD |
[08 Apr 2004|04:31pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
amused |
] |
Like my new icon?
LMFAO. xD xD xD
|
|
|
|
[28 Mar 2004|09:19pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 scared |
] |
Matt and i were just talking about having a baby in a couple of years. god...thats such a scary thought. i dont think im ready yet. i mean...a baby. a fucking baby. we both agreed that we definetly want to have kids, but not for a while. we'll probably adopt a kid when we're both in our late twenties. thats pretty soon. jeebus.
|
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
haila8mca's journal